fatalbreath's Diaryland Diary

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April 23, 2024 - -
April 19, 2024 - Starting to feel out of control so need to push even harder...
April 18, 2024 - I don't know.
April 17, 2024 - -
April 16, 2024 - Le vent nous portera...
April 15, 2024 - I've done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins...
April 14, 2024 - I keep living this day like the next will never come...
April 13, 2024 - Looking for a strand to climb... looking for... a little hope...
April 12, 2024 - You realize that sometimes you're just not okay...
April 11, 2024 - Tales of ordinary madness...
April 10, 2024 - The High Priestess...
April 09, 2024 - Down but not defeated...
April 08, 2024 - Monday blah...
April 07, 2024 - Sunny day...
April 06, 2024 - S...a...t...u...r...d...a...y...
April 05, 2024 - I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand...
April 04, 2024 - Boring updates...
April 03, 2024 - Wading through the fog...
April 01, 2024 - Trying to get back to it...
March 25, 2024 - Not all Mondays are bad...
March 18, 2024 - -
March 15, 2024 - Diary of the dead...
March 08, 2024 - My mind is a prison...
March 07, 2024 - Too fat for a funeral...
March 01, 2024 - -
February 15, 2024 - -
February 14, 2024 - Vices and musings...
February 12, 2024 - The mundanity of life...
February 06, 2024 - -
February 05, 2024 - Where is my mind...
February 02, 2024 - Another day, another...
February 01, 2024 - Uninspired but still spirited...
January 30, 2024 - ...
January 29, 2024 - I'm a loser baby...
January 28, 2024 - Not a Sunny Sunday...
January 27, 2024 - What the fuck does it matter...
January 20, 2024 - Who fucking cares?
December 20, 2023 - What's going on Wednesday...
December 19, 2023 - Trying to find discipline...
December 18, 2023 - Solstice approaches...
December 15, 2023 - -
December 14, 2023 - I don't even know...
December 12, 2023 - The mundane life...
December 10, 2023 - Regret and shame...
December 09, 2023 - S-A-T-U-R-D-A-Y
December 08, 2023 - Best laid plans...
December 07, 2023 - Time to step it up...
December 06, 2023 - I can't believe it's only Wednesday...
December 05, 2023 - Ramblings of an unkempt mind...
December 04, 2023 - Ahem...
November 28, 2023 - Breathe...
November 26, 2023 - -
November 24, 2023 - Autopilot...
November 23, 2023 - All over the place...
November 22, 2023 - Trying to take back my sanity...
November 21, 2023 - Sad days...
November 20, 2023 - Day 1 Déjà Vu...
November 19, 2023 - Regret and shame...
November 17, 2023 - Rambly, shambly mind...
November 16, 2023 - 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...
November 15, 2023 - Still don't even know...
November 14, 2023 - I don't even know...
November 13, 2023 - Another Day 1...
November 12, 2023 - ...
November 08, 2023 - Wednesday...
November 07, 2023 - ...
November 06, 2023 - Back to the grind...
November 05, 2023 - The hangover...
November 04, 2023 - Knew I'd fuck it up...
November 03, 2023 - Fucking finally I guess...
November 02, 2023 - Push harder...
November 01, 2023 - A new month...
October 31, 2023 - Spooky daze...
October 30, 2023 - Early fall morning...
October 29, 2023 - The day after...
October 27, 2023 - Too early...
October 26, 2023 - Ignorant bliss...
October 25, 2023 - Rainy days...
October 24, 2023 - Fucked up but determined...
October 23, 2023 - Monday
October 22, 2023 - Just another Sunday...
October 21, 2023 - Nervous but determined...
October 20, 2023 - Another day....
October 19, 2023 - Steady as she goes...
October 18, 2023 - Day 4: ???
October 17, 2023 - Day 3: Feeling Okay
October 16, 2023 - Diet Day 2: Fat Like Me.
October 15, 2023 - Another Day 1...
October 14, 2023 - Older but still the same?
September 14, 2012 - Trying to get back on track after far too long...
August 06, 2012 - -
March 23, 2012 - -
March 17, 2012 - -
February 08, 2012 - I can do it. I can.
January 29, 2012 - -
January 24, 2012 - -
January 19, 2012 - -
January 16, 2012 - -
January 11, 2012 - -
January 06, 2012 - -
January 05, 2012 - -
January 03, 2012 - crisis.
December 15, 2011 - -
December 15, 2011 - -
December 08, 2011 - The most important thing...
December 01, 2011 - -
November 30, 2011 - -
November 24, 2011 - -
November 03, 2011 - -
October 14, 2011 - -
September 30, 2011 - -
September 29, 2011 - -
September 25, 2011 - -
September 14, 2011 - Yet another day 1...
September 09, 2011 - -
September 05, 2011 - -
September 04, 2011 - -
September 02, 2011 - -
August 31, 2011 - -
August 30, 2011 - -
August 28, 2011 - -
August 23, 2011 - -
July 25, 2011 - -
July 17, 2011 - -
July 11, 2011 - 112.5
July 10, 2011 - 114.5
July 06, 2011 - -
July 05, 2011 - -
July 01, 2011 - -
June 28, 2011 - -
June 27, 2011 - -
June 23, 2011 - -
June 18, 2011 - -
June 09, 2011 - -
June 08, 2011 - -
June 08, 2011 - -
May 31, 2011 - -
May 31, 2011 - -
May 30, 2011 - -
May 29, 2011 - -
May 27, 2011 - -
May 26, 2011 - -
May 25, 2011 - -
May 24, 2011 - -
May 22, 2011 - -
May 20, 2011 - -
May 15, 2011 - Bad Night.
May 14, 2011 - -
May 06, 2011 - -
May 05, 2011 - -
May 04, 2011 - A new beginning yet again...
May 03, 2011 - -
May 02, 2011 - -
April 29, 2011 - -
April 29, 2011 - Finally!
April 26, 2011 - -
April 26, 2011 - -
April 24, 2011 - -
April 20, 2011 - -
April 18, 2011 - -
April 17, 2011 - -
April 16, 2011 - -
April 14, 2011 - -
April 12, 2011 - Turning over a new leaf...
April 11, 2011 - -
April 10, 2011 - -
April 08, 2011 - -
April 06, 2011 - -
April 04, 2011 - -
April 04, 2011 - -
April 03, 2011 - -
April 02, 2011 - Yet another night of failure...
April 01, 2011 - -
March 31, 2011 - -
March 31, 2011 - -
March 30, 2011 - -
March 29, 2011 - -
March 28, 2011 - -
March 27, 2011 - -
March 27, 2011 - -
March 27, 2011 - -
March 26, 2011 - -
March 25, 2011 - -
March 24, 2011 - -
March 24, 2011 - -
March 23, 2011 - -
March 22, 2011 - -
March 21, 2011 - -
March 20, 2011 - Simple Things.
March 18, 2011 - -
March 16, 2011 - -
March 15, 2011 - Is this for real?
March 13, 2011 - -
March 13, 2011 - -
March 10, 2011 - -
March 09, 2011 - -
March 06, 2011 - -
March 05, 2011 - why?
March 04, 2011 - -
March 04, 2011 - -
March 04, 2011 - -
March 03, 2011 - -
March 03, 2011 - -
March 02, 2011 - -
February 23, 2011 - New leaf?
February 12, 2011 - -
February 11, 2011 - -
February 08, 2011 - our first home :)
February 07, 2011 - -
February 01, 2011 - -
January 28, 2011 - -
January 27, 2011 - -
January 26, 2011 - scared.
January 24, 2011 - -
January 20, 2011 - -
January 19, 2011 - -
January 17, 2011 - -
January 16, 2011 - -
January 13, 2011 - -
January 12, 2011 - -
January 10, 2011 - -
January 04, 2011 - -
January 04, 2011 - -
January 01, 2011 - -
December 29, 2010 - -
December 28, 2010 - -
December 26, 2010 - -
December 26, 2010 - -
December 13, 2010 - -
November 23, 2010 - -
November 05, 2010 - -
October 28, 2010 - -
October 22, 2010 - -
October 22, 2010 - -
October 13, 2010 - 23 going on 17...
October 10, 2010 - -
October 10, 2010 - -
October 08, 2010 - -
October 04, 2010 - -
October 03, 2010 - -
September 27, 2010 - -
September 25, 2010 - -
September 19, 2010 - -
September 18, 2010 - -
September 13, 2010 - -
September 09, 2010 - -
September 06, 2010 - -
September 05, 2010 - -
September 04, 2010 - -
September 03, 2010 - -
August 30, 2010 - -
August 24, 2010 - -
August 19, 2010 - -
August 16, 2010 - -
August 13, 2010 - -
August 12, 2010 - So this is how today is going to be?
August 12, 2010 - -
August 09, 2010 - -
August 08, 2010 - Day 4?
August 07, 2010 - Day 3
August 06, 2010 - Day 2
August 05, 2010 - Day 1
August 02, 2010 - go crazy?
July 27, 2010 - -
July 21, 2010 - -
July 13, 2010 - :D
July 11, 2010 - world cup
July 10, 2010 - -
July 10, 2010 - -
July 03, 2010 - -
July 02, 2010 - -
June 29, 2010 - -
June 26, 2010 - Why I need you.
June 23, 2010 - -
June 16, 2010 - -
June 14, 2010 - -
June 11, 2010 - Celebrate.
June 10, 2010 - -
June 09, 2010 - -
June 04, 2010 - -
May 30, 2010 - -
May 28, 2010 - -
May 27, 2010 - Never give up.
May 24, 2010 - how long can a person go on hating themself?
May 24, 2010 - -
May 22, 2010 - fuck you coe.
May 21, 2010 - -
May 18, 2010 - -
May 18, 2010 - -
May 16, 2010 - -
May 13, 2010 - Why do I always sabotage my plans?
May 12, 2010 - -
May 11, 2010 - I think my head just might explode.
May 04, 2010 - Time to take back the control.
April 14, 2010 - suffocating in the fat that I've brought upon myself.
April 07, 2010 - fuck everything.
April 06, 2010 - -
April 05, 2010 - hmm
April 03, 2010 - -
March 23, 2010 - The fat cow that I am.
March 17, 2010 - rant.
March 16, 2010 - -
March 16, 2010 - -
March 06, 2010 - -
February 27, 2010 - weekend dehydration plan
February 26, 2010 - How I spend my days off...
February 25, 2010 - fml.
February 18, 2010 - -
February 11, 2010 - no cookies.
February 09, 2010 - lazy bitch.
February 07, 2010 - merde.
January 26, 2010 - I'm a waste of existence.
January 22, 2010 - -
January 21, 2010 - 111 still.
January 20, 2010 - everything to lose.
January 15, 2010 - Day 5.
January 14, 2010 - Day 4.
January 13, 2010 - Day 3.
January 12, 2010 - Day 2.
January 11, 2010 - Day 1... I guess.
December 27, 2009 - 108.5
December 20, 2009 - 110.5
December 03, 2009 - Why today?
December 02, 2009 - It isn't good enough.
December 02, 2009 - It's not good enough.
November 20, 2009 - It's always something...
November 10, 2009 - It's always my fault...
November 07, 2009 - Wrong direction.
November 06, 2009 - fuckkk me
November 05, 2009 - boo
November 04, 2009 - Fingers crossed...
November 03, 2009 - Yet another go...
October 31, 2009 - -
October 30, 2009 - Enjoying it while it lasts...
October 28, 2009 - Hurray for plans...
October 27, 2009 - First day at new job...
October 22, 2009 - 111 *shame*
October 20, 2009 - Just an update.
October 19, 2009 - First day of no binging.
October 16, 2009 - panic attack or has god just finally taken pity on me?
October 13, 2009 - another day below...
October 12, 2009 - barely... but better than nothing...
October 11, 2009 - yipee... but for how long?
October 10, 2009 - a little closer...
October 09, 2009 - again and again...
October 08, 2009 - so why don't you kill me...
October 08, 2009 - liquid fast comfort
October 06, 2009 - emptiness consume me...
October 04, 2009 - what a night.
October 02, 2009 - way back...
October 01, 2009 - why I am not so smart a lot of the time...
September 30, 2009 - continued...
September 30, 2009 - remember back when?
September 30, 2009 - wary of the scale
September 29, 2009 - yep.
September 28, 2009 - -
December 12, 2008 - Pre-PotentialNightBinge Jitters
December 08, 2008 - A New Start (again): Day 1
November 29, 2008 - yep.
November 27, 2008 - Yet ANOTHER high calorie day...
November 18, 2008 - fail. again.
November 16, 2008 - yet another failed attempt...
November 15, 2008 - It's never too late to start over...
April 17, 2007 - 8 days to Europe...
April 16, 2007 - fast off...
April 03, 2007 - first time in a long time...
September 26, 2006 - hate me because I'm fat.
June 06, 2006 - -
May 29, 2006 - miss him...
May 24, 2006 - typical school day...
May 23, 2006 - -
May 16, 2006 - at school...
May 15, 2006 - so... now what?
May 10, 2006 - -
April 30, 2006 - -
April 18, 2006 - -
April 16, 2006 - -
April 13, 2006 - -
March 31, 2006 - -
March 29, 2006 - a new beginning?
February 17, 2006 - -
January 28, 2006 - -
January 12, 2006 - -
January 04, 2006 - -
January 02, 2006 - finally...
December 30, 2005 - -
December 26, 2005 - -
December 24, 2005 - -
December 21, 2005 - -
December 19, 2005 - -
December 15, 2005 - -
December 14, 2005 - -
December 13, 2005 - -
December 12, 2005 - -
December 09, 2005 - -
December 07, 2005 - -
December 06, 2005 - -
December 05, 2005 - -
December 03, 2005 - arg!
December 01, 2005 - -
November 30, 2005 - -
November 29, 2005 - weight...
November 28, 2005 - -
November 27, 2005 - wrist cuts...
November 26, 2005 - antidepressants...
November 24, 2005 - just testing...
November 24, 2005 - Just sayin' is all...
November 23, 2005 - Quick update...
November 22, 2005 - same old eh...
November 21, 2005 - At school...
November 17, 2005 - Hate...
November 16, 2005 - Loneliness...
November 14, 2005 - Food log...
November 14, 2005 - Getting things off my mind...
November 06, 2005 - Lonely...
November 04, 2005 - Feeling pretty good...
November 02, 2005 - Trying to preoccupy myself...
October 31, 2005 - Trying to stay in control...
October 30, 2005 - Keeping myself busy...
October 30, 2005 - Another day...
October 24, 2005 - -
October 23, 2005 - Junk food and such...
October 16, 2005 - Reasoning...
October 15, 2005 - -
October 12, 2005 - Guess...
October 11, 2005 - I don't know anymore.
October 11, 2005 - -
October 06, 2005 - -
October 05, 2005 - ...
October 05, 2005 - School and fasting...
September 30, 2005 - Disappointment
September 29, 2005 - School and such...
September 28, 2005 - Complaining...
September 26, 2005 - Just wanted to say...
September 18, 2005 - *sigh*
September 18, 2005 - Third...
September 17, 2005 - MmMmM...
September 13, 2005 - University, eh...
September 04, 2005 - Last night... and missing him...
September 03, 2005 - -
August 31, 2005 - -
August 26, 2005 - -
August 25, 2005 - no one...
August 10, 2005 - Today's plan...
August 09, 2005 - Today's Plan...
August 06, 2005 - Quick update before work...
August 05, 2005 - Work, fast, plans...
August 03, 2005 - Quick update on fast...
August 03, 2005 - Purging...
August 01, 2005 - Just whatever...
July 29, 2005 - Mom update...
July 27, 2005 - Hospital...
July 25, 2005 - Mom... not worse... but not better...
July 25, 2005 - Mom...
July 21, 2005 - More frequent updates...
July 20, 2005 - Just a quick update...
July 19, 2005 - Stressed...
July 14, 2005 - Enough...
July 13, 2005 - Typical...
July 11, 2005 - -
June 03, 2005 - It's been SO long...
May 26, 2005 - News...
May 05, 2005 - Eh...
May 02, 2005 - My Blaz...
April 30, 2005 - Truth...
April 28, 2005 - Current Feelings...
April 24, 2005 - Party...
April 18, 2005 - Binge...
April 18, 2005 - Nothing at all...
April 15, 2005 - Another disappointment...
April 12, 2005 - Disappointment...
April 07, 2005 - Longer Update...
April 04, 2005 - Quick update...
April 03, 2005 - ...
April 02, 2005 - News...
April 02, 2005 - Failure...
March 31, 2005 - Binge and New Found Vegetarianism...
March 29, 2005 - Day 1 of Fast...
March 28, 2005 - New Fast...
March 27, 2005 - Easter...
March 27, 2005 - Easter.
March 27, 2005 - ...
March 24, 2005 - Mar. 24/05
March 21, 2005 - One more time...
March 16, 2005 - -
March 08, 2005 - School...
March 06, 2005 - Hate...
March 06, 2005 - .
March 05, 2005 - Everything's going wrong...
March 04, 2005 - Agh...
March 03, 2005 - FAT Mar.3/05
March 01, 2005 - Too Late...
March 01, 2005 - Mar. 1 2005...
February 28, 2005 - Scared...
February 27, 2005 - Morning Weight...
February 27, 2005 - ...
February 24, 2005 - Today...
February 24, 2005 - Liquids...
February 23, 2005 - Not such a bad day...
February 22, 2005 - Quick Update...
February 21, 2005 - Failed...
February 21, 2005 - Liquid fast...
February 20, 2005 - Quick Update...
February 18, 2005 - Frustration...
February 18, 2005 - Details...
February 15, 2005 - School and what not...
February 15, 2005 - This and that...
February 13, 2005 - No comment.
February 09, 2005 - Food Log...
February 07, 2005 - New Plan...
February 04, 2005 - Failed.
February 04, 2005 - Interview...
February 03, 2005 - Pointless...
February 01, 2005 - A New Beginning?
January 14, 2005 - Quick Update...
January 10, 2005 - Going to try again...
January 09, 2005 - This and that...
January 05, 2005 - Quick update...
January 04, 2005 - Update'd
January 04, 2005 - Updated'd...
January 04, 2005 - Vent...
December 31, 2004 - Bleh...
December 29, 2004 - Plans...
December 24, 2004 - Merry Christmas Eve...
December 16, 2004 - Inspired? Why can't I reach the goal then?
December 12, 2004 - Back again...
December 05, 2004 - What now??
December 03, 2004 - Once again...
November 25, 2004 - Parents...
November 11, 2004 - My fault...
November 07, 2004 - *Sigh*
October 31, 2004 - So much...
October 28, 2004 - *SIGH*
October 22, 2004 - ...
October 17, 2004 - This and that...
October 16, 2004 - Why?
October 06, 2004 - Please...?
September 30, 2004 - Confusion...
September 29, 2004 - Bleh...
September 26, 2004 - I don't know...
September 25, 2004 - Sorry...
September 20, 2004 - What will I become...?
September 13, 2004 - Crying...
September 12, 2004 - One big *sigh*
September 10, 2004 - Been a while...
September 06, 2004 - Too much to handle...
September 06, 2004 - *sigh*
September 04, 2004 - Getting stuff out...
September 03, 2004 - Give up on me...
September 01, 2004 - Fat...
August 31, 2004 - FAT...
August 29, 2004 - Promised update...
August 29, 2004 - Blatant foreshadowing...
August 29, 2004 - Stupid guys...
August 27, 2004 - Awful...
August 26, 2004 - Confusion...
August 26, 2004 - Venting...
August 24, 2004 - Finally...
August 21, 2004 - Computer, eating, feeling...
August 20, 2004 - Just needed to talk...
August 20, 2004 - This and that...
August 20, 2004 - Gah...
August 19, 2004 - Pissed...
August 18, 2004 - Just another boring update...
August 17, 2004 - *sigh*
August 16, 2004 - Too much going on...
August 15, 2004 - Food... my brother...
August 14, 2004 - Weight and guys... what else is new...?
August 13, 2004 - The usual...
August 12, 2004 - Update, weight, sick...
August 11, 2004 - Losing... guys... food...
August 10, 2004 - This guy... and my weight...
August 9, 2004 - All about me...
June 8, 2004 - New...